Frustrated

Well, 24 hours ago I was in tears. I've been so frustrated with Jodee's sleep schedule these days. It doesn't help either to hear on facebook that a friend in Vernon has a son 2 days older than Jodee, is sleeping 5-7 hour stretches every night. Oh, so jealous! Jodee has been letting me get on average 2.5 hour stretches at night. It is SO tiring and frustrating! I can put up with it only so much as she's 6 weeks old today (it's 3:50 am). I don't mind the first couple weeks being like this, but 6 weeks!? At 6 weeks Sidney was letting me sleep longer stretches, but not this one! I decided to give her a bottle of formula at night now in case that she's not getting full enough on breast milk. So, last night I gave her a bottle and she drank 3.5 oz along with breast milk after that as she wasn't keen on colder formula at the end as she snacked on it, but she slept just under 4 hours! Yeah! So that means I got about 3.5!! Oh, it feels so good! She's asleep on me right now after a feed and I figured I'd enjoy some snuggles with her while I write a quick update. I figured it wouldn't take me long and during the day I have NO time to do that! I know I should be going to bed to get more sleep but in a minute! It has just sucked emotionally, the lack of sleep as I feel that I have no time for Byron as my life revolves around Jodee and I have no energy for him. As soon as Jodee is in bed, I go too. If she's awake late, he goes to bed. So, it's kinda a revolving door. I get snappier at Sidney for the littlest things if I don't get enough sleep which I don't find fair to her as she's such a beautiful little girl it breaks my heart to see her sad for my reactions at what she's doing which she shouldn't have been scolded like that for. I feel like a social life sucks too as Friday night we went out, but when we got home just before 12, Jodee decided it was awake time and kept me up until 1:45am, then Sat night we had a couple from church over and Jodee slept the whole time (with a feed or 2 in between) but she woke up at 11:30 and was awake until 1 am. SO, both nights from when I went to bed until the morning was only about 4.5 hours. ZZZzzzz..... Yeah, that didn't help with the tearfull moment either. It's hard thinking that I'm up feeding 2-3x/night and Byron is passed out beside me, enjoying a full night's sleep. Sigh, I know I said I wasn't going to complain and I have been, but at 6 weeks you would expect to get a BIT longer of stretches of sleep! I'm not asking her to sleep through the night, but 4 hours or longer a couple times a week would be nice!! Now that I was at my breaking point (I see it that way), hopefully I can become positive again and try to enjoy these snuggle times like I should and think positive again and know that IT'S NOT GOING TO LAST.

Jodee has also been gassy at some feedings lately too, ever since she caught her cold. So, I figured that I would buy some probiotics for her and see if that helps. So, Friday night I started and it's been 3 days on it and she hasn't had a gassy feed for a few feeds now. So, let's hope it works out and helps! I heard of people doing the probiotic route as I heard the gripe water doesn't do much. She's not colicy as she doesn't have her hours of crying, just frustration on her part at feeds. I did notice, whether it's the formula she got or the probiotics, but she only pooped once yesterday (Sunday), so I just have to make sure she's not going to get constipated as before she had a poopy diaper at ever change before, and not always a small one!

Well, if you have any comments/suggestions of any tips to help this girl and her mamma get some sleep, it's welcome! I'm open to suggestions! Please pray that emotionally I can do this. I'm NOT feeling depressed about this, but I just had a few down days due to lack of sleep. I find that sleeping really late and taking naps are a waste of a day, but if I have to do them, then I do. I hear Byron's coffee brewing so it's time for me to go to bed and him to wake up a go to work, so sweet dreams to me!